Real? Or not real?

that's how we get alzheimer
too many things
seems real
at the beginning
not real
at the end

too confused
too disappointed
too many times

so we choose to forget

alzheimer
just another word
called
hide-out.

this year is 2012...

so, so, so...

well, well, well...

really it is a year of speechlessness
helplessness
hopelessness?

it is a year to many people
to look forward to
ending the struggle
with life

and juz want to decide
what underwear to wear,
when die.

NOT AGAIN!!!

even if you are not counting
the calendar will remind you

even if you are not recalling
the tv will remind you

even if you are not intrested
the firework will excite you

even if you no longer can go on
the breathing will carry you

again again and again...