incredible indeed

(It is indeed incredible i actually did write something in 2012. Unbelievable.)

365days is a long time actually.

seriously, in January perhaps you would feel you were still stuck,
by April, you could have been freed,
and by September, your soul is looking for its wings again
...

so it goes on and on

and you lost count of the seasons
                                   the years

(as for today, i would like to keep a record of me having chicken pox, at the age of 46, in Borneo, watching china's new map in making, watching salmon rashdie's traumatised past, actually sitting down watching tv, incredible.)

愚祸

人祸

不是因为  人
是因为           愚
                            痴

那才是最                  恒
                                       久

的                                       遗憾

Real? Or not real?

that's how we get alzheimer
too many things
seems real
at the beginning
not real
at the end

too confused
too disappointed
too many times

so we choose to forget

alzheimer
just another word
called
hide-out.

this year is 2012...

so, so, so...

well, well, well...

really it is a year of speechlessness
helplessness
hopelessness?

it is a year to many people
to look forward to
ending the struggle
with life

and juz want to decide
what underwear to wear,
when die.

NOT AGAIN!!!

even if you are not counting
the calendar will remind you

even if you are not recalling
the tv will remind you

even if you are not intrested
the firework will excite you

even if you no longer can go on
the breathing will carry you

again again and again...

停止努力

如果有一天我突然间发现
我竟然已经停止想念你
我想
我会觉得有点惊讶

只有不经意的努力
才会遗忘
才会戒掉

逃

文字的国度里
无垠的边疆
白纸和黑字
允许
灰色的逃亡

四方的银幕
最大的声量
陌生的故事
睁着眼睛沉溺
却可以
腾出几小时
喘息的时间

真空塑胶袋里
藏着味精的味道，
伪装的
鸡、虾、鱼
刚好
吻合了
求存的
牵强

（酒精
应该是最快速
的出口处）