so-called happiness

i think
i have given up
in search of so-called happiness
perhaps
i never did try

searching for happiness
sounds so much like a cliche
since everyone is saying it
so i follow

but i think i search for something else in this world
i think i have been searching for kindness in people
and in myself
i have been searching for fairness in this world
and in myself

yes, i can vaguely remember
each time i encountered those qulaities
i smiled

so i guess
eventually
what i have been searching for
will indirectly
make me happy

but i am not interested
in happiness

(happiness,
such a predictable cliche ...)